Ze grass is always greener on the other side

I'm self amazed too, to why I'v volunteered to do a 8km run this morning with the regulars despite knowing the fact that Iv gotta stand another 4 hours under the sun later in the day as a makeshift RP, and sprint another 2.4km for my 1st IPPT pass on the following day.

Besides the obvious reasons related to vainity, perhaps Iv come to realise that life in the army's too monotonous.. for me in particular. I witnessed today a buncha newly posted in specialists, grinning optimistically looking forward to finally settling in the "slack unit life". And here I am, slacking since the past 8 months, ironically wishing to be enlisted as a trainee just to get a taste of hardship.

I needed some moral boost, to sort out all thats been going on, to finally perk myself up, a sort of self issued challenge.. Think I did pretty well in the 8km trial run, perhaps that should convince my CSM that I'd be able to manage double that distance come tuesday.